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Found this Video wondering across the internet, Warning this Video may not be suitable for those under 13 as it deals with mature themes of ware fare and some swearing....but it's still a great video...what do you all think? http://www.filecabi.net/video/war_men_in_black.html |
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Today was an awfully crappy day, We had to put one of my dads dog zigfried to sleep, he was only 12, he had some problems with his back, and it just turned into a quality of life issue. I woke up at about 0700, to pouring rain...somewhat symbolic now that I think about it. I met my dad and step mom at the vets office, and we brought zigfried into one of the exam rooms. They took my dads dog in the back and put a stint in one of zigfrieds veins then brought him back out. eventually the vet came out and explained what was going to happen, what what the shot was, which is an overdose on anesthtic, we all said good bye to my dads dog, and the doctor injected Zigfried with the shot, and he just went to sleep, very quickly...he was ready I think... out of everyone my dad took it the hardest i think, as Zigfried was "his" dog. I took it pretty hard though, even though he wasn't my dog, I still loved him and he was a great dog. I remember when I was younger he chewed up one of my favorite baseball hats, I was pissed at the time, but I forgave him, because he was so lovable and cute. I just can't believe zigfried is gone, it really sucks... and I also have to work today, answering phone calls, and getting yelled at by people who absolutely need their package b/c it's so important and critical, they can't drive their lazy ass 15 minutes to go pick it up Current Mood:  sad |
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So a friend of mine that I haven't hung out with in a while and I was actually starting to miss, and was just thinking about left this on my AIM today "i feel like your online journals are not doing it for me... am i too much for you to handle or something." I I have no idea what that means..I think it's supposed to be funny, but thats usually typical for me, jokes going right over my head, lol. Oh well, I'll gwt my friend to lay it out for me later, I'll have to let them know they may have to speak kinda slow, so I get it. Anyway, not much has been going on this past week, I've sent in a coule more Resumes, so something more will hopefully pan out and I can leave the hell hole of DHL. I've been going to gym for the past 2 weeks everyday M-F, and it's been getting kinda tedeious, but eh I guess I have to deal, if I want to get back in shape. it's going to take a while, but I know that if Iwork hard enough I'll get there, eventually....anywho thats it for now, See y'all later!Current Mood: geeky Current Music: Always Something There to Remind Me-Naked Eyes |
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So I came to the starl realization today, that the degree that I currently have from Le Moyne is almost completely useless unless I want to go back to grad school and teach, and to be quite honest I really don't want to teach. So really the only other thing apprantly this degree is good for is getting me a dead end, low paying (as in 9.00/Hr) Job. It's all just really frusturating, I mean I was trained to lead no fewer than 12 other people into armed combat, and I went to arguably one of the best colleges in New York, and all I can get is a job that pays me 9.00/Hr while working horrible hours where I never actually get to see my family awake? at this point I wonder what the heck was the whole reason behind me going to college and racking up all that debt, christ a trained monkey could do the job I have now, hell a trained monkey could do better than some of the people I work with. So I guess in all of this, I'm going to have to go back to school, because I basically shot myself in the foot by taking a history track, hell I'd rather re-up into the service than work another day in my hell hole of an office. actually, that is my motivation for going to the gym, so I can re-up, hell at least I'll be getting payed better and be doing something interesting. Anyway, I'm sorry to anywone who is reading this, i didn't mean to gripe so long, I just had to get it off my chest. Current Music: Jesus Walks-Kanye West |
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just got back from hanging out with some HS friends, it was really good seeing them all again, and caching up, also I think I saw someone I knew from ol' west genny, Laura Cantone (who I used to have the biggest crush on) but I just gave her that "I think I know you..." look, which I'm sure sufficiently weirded her out, no mattter who she was. Going off in a completely different direction, I heard the song "Invisible Touch" by Genesis today and it reminded me of a friend of mine. The song, if you're not familiar with it, is a song about intagibility, speaking of a woman (or women in general) whose qualities go beyond just what meets the eye. it applies to my friend in that, I like hanging out because we have similar personalities, senses of humor, and we both can rib each other without pissing the other one off too bad (I have yet to really test that one yet, cause hooo boy do I have a nack for pissing people off...but thats for another post). Anywho I just thought I'd share that with you all, out in internet land. I just think it's interesting how music sometimes seems to mesh so well with whats happening in your life, kinda along the same principal of no matter what station you listen to after you just broke up...all the songs are about you and your ex. Anywho folks, goodnight and goodluck and I'll catch y'all later Current Mood:  contemplative Current Music: I'm Shipping Up to Boston-Dropkick Murphys |
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Okay so here goes, but before you read any further, this will probably end up being a little pathetic, maybe even EMO...Just wanted to give you all a fair warning before you all read any further....With that said here goes...A whole heckavu lot has happened since I last updated which was damn near a year ago. For starters I was discharged from the Army, for medical reasons. To this day it's something that I regret and if I had my way, I would definetly re-up, which actually may be a possibility, depending on if I can stay relatively healthy. Getting discharged from the Army was probably one of the biggest blows to me Ego, ever. When I was in...there was this sense of accomplishment, pride and commraderie. Getting those papers was almost as if I had failed at it, but it didn't seem fair because I had no control over it, it was just something that came on sort of suddenly. After being discharged I lost a lot of direction in my life, as I was planning on being on active status for at least 40 Weeks or so. Effectively, I had absolutely no contigency plans or "what if" scenarios planned, just incase something like a discharge were to happen. For a while I just wondered whatthe heck I was going to do, as I was graduating soon as well. I didn't really want to go to Grad school just yet Luckily it wasn't to bad, as I had the support of my then Girlfriend Maureen (more on that later) to help me through the time when I really had no aim. I did graduate on time, but I still had no job or any idea what to do. Eventaully I got a job working for DHL, which I still have and by the way sucks hard. But hey it was a job and my girlfriend was in syacuse for the summer while she had a job at the DA's office here in the cuse, so it pretty much worked out for the better or so i thought.So summer ended, and maureen and I went seperate ways, to once again resume the long distance, until we'd get a chance to see eachother again, which I thought would probably be around my B-day. A little while goes by, as I grind away at DHL and my birthday fast approaches, understandably I'm getting a little excited. Here the details become disputed by both parties, but I'll tell it how I remember, a day or so before my birthday Maureen calls me, or I call her...I can't really remember. Anyway, we talk for a while and we have and maureen brings up "not being able to do it any more" of course by that I mean the long distance. She then brings up a whole host of reasons, which I won't really get into, because I'm not out to really make anyone feel bad or embarassed with this. Anyway, I think maureen is totally off base with some, if not most of these things, we argue for a bit, and then hang up. At that point I remember just being in this weird "fog." I felt as if for the next couple of days I was just watching my self go through the motions of a normal daily routine, I was there, but I wasn't...y'know? The one feeling I DO remember vividly is the sick, naseated feeling of "I'm about to vomit..." So time goes by some more and I hang out with some people here and There...Christine and Liz...if you're reading this I'm sorry if it seemed a bit akward, it was the first time I had hung out with a girl other than my girlfriend in a looooooooooong whie. Any who....that kinda brings us up to today, right now I'm still working at DHL, which stil sucks. Also I'm getting my ass back to the gym, since like most military folks when they get out of the service, I put some weight back on. I think I may ed up turning this into a fitness/waitloss journalas I figure it will motivate me more to loose those inches. Also I am seriously considering going back into the service, but I haven't quite figure that one out yet, right now I have some Irons in the fire so we'll see where those lead to first. But Hopefully I'll be back in "fightin shape" by summer and I'll be able to make a better decision. Anywho thats it for now, but expect more updates and the such, at least weekly with my progress
Feb. 26th, 2007 @ 01:29 am
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Remember, remember the fifth of November
The gunpowder treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot.
Guy Fawkes, twas his intent
To blow up king and parliament.
Three score barrels were laid below
To prove old England's overthrow.
Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 01:26 am
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Damnit all to hell...just god damnit
Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 01:06 am
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Dear "anonymous"
While I certainly do appreciate thine comments and interest in my thoughts and psyche, I wish that you would tell me who you are so that I may talk to thee and thank thee for thine interest. If thou does not wish to reveal thyself here on LJ, please talk to me on AIM on the SN Mikeywin I hope to hear from you soon, oh stranger of the electrons.
Mar. 18th, 2006 @ 08:32 pm
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Well, I really don't feel like studying for my midterm right now, so I figured I'd update this bad boy. It's been a long time since I last updated, and I'm not sure that too many people really care. Regardless, a whole lot of stuff has been going on, more than I care to write in one entry so I'll be updating more frequently now that I have a whole ton more freetime than before. Any way just glad to be back for right now...talk to ya'll later
-Fiermonte Out!
Mar. 15th, 2006 @ 08:20 pm
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| You Should Drive a Ford Shelby Mustang Cobra | 
You have an extreme need for speed, even when you're not in a hurry.
And while your flying by, you don't want to look like every other car on the road! |
Mar. 14th, 2006 @ 04:29 pm
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Your Seduction Style: The Charmer
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You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them!
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Mar. 14th, 2006 @ 04:16 pm
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Yeah, Yeah, Yeah I know it's been forever and a half since I've updated. A lot has happened since I got back from BCT, and by a Lot I mean a whole freaking bunch. Let's see.....Well My grandmother died about 3-4 weeks after I got back...which really sucked, I still miss her terribly. She was so involved in my raising as a youngster....but it's been especially hard on my mom, but she's been aking it pretty well. Then lets see...what else... My girl friend dropped me like a bad habbit on the day we burried my grandmother. It felt like I had just been kicked in the face. I couldn't believe it...I was speechless...I was like..wha...what...oh and the best part is...she was going to do it over IM...wasn't even going to bother to call me...until I said...I think you should call me for this....if it's what I think it is. She claims she didn't know that that was going on...but I know for a fact that I told her my grandmother was sick...and that she had died...maybe if she had asked how I was doing, instead of trying to drop me so quickly, she might have known what was happening. ::shakes his head:: I'll never understand women.
Fast forward to this week, I was at the reserve center, found out my deployability status is green, hell if I go I can't wait. in fact I hope I do go. I'm going to be going to Ft. Dix during the winter some time....or possibly in the spring, for some extra training. going to be training with a CA unit...Thats Civil Affairs. I've heard their pretty high speed, so it should be fun, plus I'll be getting paid as an E-5. so that'll be even better, heh. Well folks...I'm out for now... mybe I'll go for a run...to help clear my head
Oct. 10th, 2004 @ 02:40 pm
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Well folks, T-minus 2 days and counting till my ass gets shipped off to Ft. Jackson, S.C. for BCT,lol....the 25th can't come soon enough...
May. 23rd, 2004 @ 03:21 am
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For those of you I haven't told yet.....which could be quite a bit as my memory sucks, I'm going to BCT (Basic Combat Training) in May. It's tenativelly scheduled for May 25th, but I want to move it up to May 13th, that way I'll be able to enjoy my summer when I come home. I'll be gone for 9 Weeks, and I'll be going to FT. Jackson, S.C. where I'm sure it will be hot as all hell, but I'll be the better for it, I'm sure. Well If I don't see or talk to you all before I leave, have a nice summer!
Apr. 30th, 2004 @ 06:12 pm
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Well, just finished my 8 page American History term paper, and my 3 page Roman History paper. I'm sort of sad to see it go in a way...all that work...gone, kinda sad when ya think about it...lol, maybe it's just the lack of sleep talking. this weekend oughta be good....I have my first drill with my Reserve Unit coming up, it'll be interesting,since I haven't been able to get in contact with ANYONE, but yet I'm still expected to show up, oddd I guess. thats the military for you I suppose. Well any folks, peace out for now.
Apr. 15th, 2004 @ 11:35 pm
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Well, this is one of the hardest entries to write, I've deleted it about 3 or 4 times now. I find myself thinking, but if asked what I was thinking about, I really wouldn't be able to tell you. I'd probably say "nothing really, just thinking..." and then I'd trail off and get that thousand yard stare again. When in actuality all sorts of things are going through my head, I just don't realy know how to explain them all...their so random and disjointed, they really make no sense at all...It's like I'm watching T.V., get bored with the channel and then flip to something else. I figure though, if I put them down, here, it maybe will help to figure things out as I write them; so here goes nothing.....
I find myself looking back on my decision to join the military, I guess it's finally set in, the reality of it all. Now that I had an official Enlistment date and all. as of 3/12/04 I officially became a PFC in the United States Army. Don't get me wrong, it's one of the proudest moments of my life, I just look back on it and see that I may have gotten into the whole Army thing for totally wrong reasons, but now I want to do it to serve my country and defend my loved ones, which wasn't necessaily the reason I got the whole ball rolling on this thing. At first I started to get into the Amry, to prove people wrong, to prove to them that I could do it, because if you knew me in middle school, I would be the least likely person Physically and mentally. I wanted to prove them all wrong, to show them all what asses they were. I also did it, for the fact that people might like me more if they knew I was in the Army, be more attracted to me, be more willing to talk to me, all those things. As I began to think about it and mull things over in my mind, I realized that I can't change peoples attitudes really or makep their minds for them, as I came to that realization I also came to the realization of how many true friends I really had, the ones that would bail me out of jail, if they have the money. I felt so fortunate to have so many true close friends that my thinking began to change. I began to realize that I would never want anything to happen to them, and I would do anything to prevent it. Thats when I realized that if I joined in the Army, that would be the best way to make sure my friends and loved ones were protected, as well as the country I love. So it was with a renewed sense of purpose that I persued my goals of joining, and that brings us to today I guess. Chances are, once I'm done with undergrad and I'm working on my masters, I will get deployed, as ROTC will no longer protect me from getting shipped out. People ask me every now and then if I'm scared of dying I tell themplainly "yeah, yeah I am" but then I elaborate on that a little more. I think everyone is scared to die, we just show it in our own way, we're scared to die because it's a great mystery to us, it's unexplained and unkown, and we're inherintly scared of what we don't know. So yes, I am afraid to die, but it won't cripple me, I think if anything it will help me come back safe home and bring the men that I lead safe home too. I do know that if I die, It will have been for a greater purpose than my own. I will also know that because I have made the ultimate sacrifce, some one else may live, that might end up doing more good than I could ever possibly imagine. I don't want my friends to mourne me, rather I'd want them to celebrate, knowing that I led my life exactly the way I wanted. That I have no regrets, about how things might have been or how I could have done things differently. I also would want them to realize that I'm someplace better, going headlong into a new adventure.....
I look back on my life right now and realize that I'm quite happy with the decsions I've made, they may not have been the best decisions, but I'm all the better for it, that I am sure of. I've made a few very close friends and Iwouldn't trade anything in the world for them, hell I'd even give my Kidney's to em...which means I'd have to give up Scotch, so just remember that guys....I'd give up Scotch for you :) I also look eagerly ahead towards the future and wonder whats in store for me? what lies around the next bend? what kind of new adventure awaits our hero? I get excited at the prospects of it, knowing that I have a full life to pretty much do what I will with it, much like a sculptor would mold his clay.
My only regret is that I have only so many years to do so so many things....
Mar. 16th, 2004 @ 08:46 pm
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Well got my first Jury summons today...Grand Jury no less, needless to say I'm going to call in to get it postponed....Jesus Christ can't they bother someone else? Oh well, just a Minor inconvenience I suppose....
Mar. 11th, 2004 @ 08:40 pm
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Yeah I know it's been a while, but hey I've had big important things to do (yeah right). Not too much has really been going on. The love life is still non-existent, but I suppose I got things to keep me distracted. Classes are getting kinda crazy, especially my Shakespeare class.Don't get me wrong or anything, I love Shakespeare, but I hate group work, especially when I'm the only one taking any initiative. One other interesting thing...I'm in the reserves now as well as ROTC...come to ind out I'm also colorblind, so I won't be doing any of that High sppeed, low drag stuff. But hey, at least I'll still be serving my country. But hey the upside is, I'll be getting a Reserve force scholarship thats worth $17,000 a year, so all in all I suppose thats not to bad a deal.
Mar. 9th, 2004 @ 02:19 pm
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